UPDATE

Alrighty, So I have written on here in a month I guess. A lot has kind of happened I think. I finally got my divorce papers filed and they should be finalized and legal in April or May. Then I'll finally be free of that womanizer asshole!

My seizures are semi-better. I have my good days and my horrible days. I haven't really have had a hallucination, except the other night. I have a new boyfriend and he said that it was kinda creepy, but they don't happen often.

My new boyfriend's name is Keith :) I met him on www.plentyoffish.com. He's sweet, cute, loving, my family loves him, he's got a good head on his shoulders. He's going to be 27 this year, and he has two kids, they're so cute! I don't mind dating a dad, I think they have more perspective on life than most guys. I like them older too. Best thing is he isn't a deadbeat dad, he L O V E S those kids like theres no tomorrow! Which makes me happy :) I couldn't be with someone that didn't care about their kids. I love kids, I want to be a mom more than anything, but that CAN WAIT! lol. Decided I don't want to get married again till I'm like 24 or 25, and then after being married a while, I want to try and have kids. Depends on the situation. Of course nothing goes as planned! lol. So we will see.

Jason and I broke up a little over a week ago. I'm fine :) We're still really good friends. He's my bestfriend now.

Jason :)

February 1st I met Jason, we were just going to hang out as friends, but that kinda didn't happen. I saw him a couple more times that week & even spent the night a couple times. February 5th he asked me to be his girlfriend :) We're rarely apart. I don't like sleeping alone anymore. He's my 100% upgrade from the ex (HE WHO SHALL NOT BE NAMED). I'm happy & I'm feeling better. Seizures are down! Not for good yet, but someday hopefully! Everyday I see Jason I just love him more and more.

I'm feeling a lot better. Haven't had a bad seizure in a while. I think the fact that Jon and I finally went our separate ways and I actually know whats going on with me has something to do with it. I'm just trying to get me better and happy again. I want my life back.

Jon left, we're getting a divorce.

Now I have bronchitis, fun times

I'm not sure why I keep a blog. As far as I know one person reads it. Not sure why people would want to read it, my life isn't exciting. If anything my life is depressing. I'm not happy. A lot of people don't know that, but I cry more than normal. I used to only cry when I thought of my dad or grandpa. Now I cry whenever I think of my life in general. We're going to start the search for a therapist soon. I need to be medicated. It got so bad I started a suicide letter, doubt I'd ever use it. I don't think I could really bring myself to kill myself. I'm just depressed.