I'm feeling a lot better. Haven't had a bad seizure in a while. I think the fact that Jon and I finally went our separate ways and I actually know whats going on with me has something to do with it. I'm just trying to get me better and happy again. I want my life back.

Jon left, we're getting a divorce.

Now I have bronchitis, fun times

I'm not sure why I keep a blog. As far as I know one person reads it. Not sure why people would want to read it, my life isn't exciting. If anything my life is depressing. I'm not happy. A lot of people don't know that, but I cry more than normal. I used to only cry when I thought of my dad or grandpa. Now I cry whenever I think of my life in general. We're going to start the search for a therapist soon. I need to be medicated. It got so bad I started a suicide letter, doubt I'd ever use it. I don't think I could really bring myself to kill myself. I'm just depressed.